The Virtuous Woman

About a month ago I started looking for a job. I really love being a stay at home mom but with the holidays coming up, it would be really nice to have some extra money. But it's been hard to find anything because before opening my home daycare in 2008, I worked in nursing, which usually requires flexible hours, and right now my schedule is anything but flexible.

Breastfeeding Failure

When I had Jackie I always struggled with my milk supply. She was so little that her suck wasn't strong enough to breastfeed. I would pump every 2 hours but I would only get maybe half an ounce from each breast, it was beyond frustrating. The lactation consultant I had basically made me feel like I wasn't trying hard enough, and she scolded me for giving Jackie formula in the hospital. I know you aren't supposed to give a new baby pacifiers and bottles, but I didn't have a choice. Jackie was barely 5 lbs at birth and because I was diabetic she had to have formula to keep her glucose levels okay. If I had chosen to withhold formula like the lactation lady suggested, what if something happened to Jackie? I would never have been able to forgive myself. After a month of pumping and going crazy with guilt over not being able to give my baby what's best for her, I finally decided to give up breastfeeding. I tried not to let it bother me, but deep down it did. I just felt like my body failed me once again. I struggled getting pregnant, then my entire pregnancy was miserable, I had to be induced at 37 weeks after being I the hospital for over a week, so what made me think breastfeeding was gonna be easy?

Why Should I Worry?

I am finally starting to get into a good routine with my babies, and Levi is finally starting to sleep for longer stretches at night, which is definitely helping me have more energy to do things like blogging. Right now both Jackie and Levi are taking their afternoon nap, yay for kids sleeping at the same time!  That usually never happens, haha! Anyway, I thought I'd take this time to give an update on my friend k, I'm sad to say the last few months have been extremely hard on her.

Momma's boy

Levi was born Saturday August 3rd, at 5:52am. He was 8 lbs 3oz and 20 1/2 inches long. He looks just like his big sister!

My induction was about 14 hours and it was such a better experience this time! Here are the details:

God is so good!

We finally got internet in our apartment, so I thought i would stop by for an update.Well I am 38 weeks pregnant as of tomorrow! I had my high risk dr's appt yesterday and Levi and I are doing great! So great that my dr does not want to induce me until I hit 39 weeks, so I saw my regular o.b. dr today, and I was shocked to find out I am 2 cm dilated and 75% effaced. My o.b. told me that she thinks I will just go into labor on my own, but just In case, she has scheduled me for induction next Friday at 7am! I'm so thankful I have made it this far in my pregnancy, this time I feel ready and prepared to have a baby, the apartment is clean, all the laundry is done and our hospital bags are packed, we can't wait to meet our little man!

Almost there!

Hi everyone! Again I am so sorry for not being able to stop in and give updates more often. As of right now we still do not have internet in our apartment because we are just trying to cut down on monthly expenses and we just decided we can live without having the internet for right now. Here are some updates!

Big Changes going on!

Just wanted to give a quick update! I'm so sorry I haven't been able to blog in a while, I have had so much going on!

Roger and I have some very exciting news!