So, today I was at the doctors getting some tests done because I've been having some health problems (I will have to do a separate post about all that), anyway, I was walking out to check-out and pay my co-pay and leave when I saw a young woman, who looked to be about my age, talking to a doctor in the same hallway as where I needed to go to check-out. As I walked up towards them I saw her ask
the doctor a question, but I didn't quite hear what it was. But then I heard the doctor say to her, "I'm sorry, all we can do is order another quantitative beta HCG, and you need to have another ultrasound in a week. If your beta does not raise, and if we still can't see anything on the ultrasound in a week, then the pregnancy is not viable." At this point I was literally standing right next to them at the check-out window and I was just baffled that this doctor said all this to her in a hallway where other patients (like me!) can hear everything being said. Then, I just hear this poor girl start sobbing. My heart broke for her. I glanced her way and I noticed she was completely alone, so I would guess this news was completely unexpected. I seriously wanted to run up to her and hug her, but I'm pretty sure she would have thought I was a weirdo. I heard the doctor apologize again, and she gave her instructions for when to come in for blood work. At this point, the receptionist finally came out and collected my co-pay, and I was on my way. But once I got outside, I just kinda sat in my car kinda stunned over everything I had just witnessed. It brought on so many emotions and memories of my own infertility journey. My heart felt so burdened for this young lady. I have no idea who she is, or if this was her first pregnancy, or how long she has been TTC, but my guess would be that she has been TTC a while. Just from the sound of her sobs and how desperate her expression was, I just know she has been trying a while. I know because I have had that expression and I have sobbed in the same way.
I know that it wasn't an accident that I saw this young lady today, I believe God let me see this happen today for several reasons. First off, I believe He let me see this to remind me of how far He has brought me in the last three years. Lately with all my health issues I have spent too much time feeling sorry for myself. I'm done feeling that way! Then secondly, I believe God let me see this young lady because He wants me to pray for her. I feel led to add her to my prayer list for as long as God leads me to. I pray that she gets a miracle in the next week, but if she doesn't, I pray that God will open her womb again soon!
My hope is one day I will run into her at the doctor's again, but this time I pray that she will have a little miracle with her. That would be just wonderful!
So, to the girl at my doctor's office- you are in my thoughts and prayers!
wow, saying a prayer for her tonight too. Such a horrible all-consuming fear and grief she must be in. Ugh, so many memories coming up.
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Thanks for joining me in prayer for this young lady! I'm doing much better, thank you for asking! Thanks for stopping by my blog and taking the time to comment, I really appreciate it!
DeletePrayers to her indeed. We see things like this through new eyes having experienced it ourselves.
ReplyDeleteThat is so true, Melissa! Thanks so much for stopping by my blog! I hope your sister is doing well and that you are feeling better!
Deleteoh wow! I'm adding her to my prayer list as well. Poor thing!
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Thanks for praying for her with me! And thanks for stopping by my blog, I really appreciate it!
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